Michigan girls inspired this post

what is it about this world that makes it so impossible to figure out?

why do we delude ourselves that we are able to have a relationship that lasts for the entirety of our lives without running into any sign of trouble?

isn’t it that very trouble that helps mould and shape us?

if we didn’t have any challenges to overcome how can we truly claim to be in love?

if neither partner is ever required to compromise to keep what they have alive then we are basically just sharing the same roof we may as well be in a business meeting unless we make it our business to merge our lives together with theirs.

I don’t know what it is that convinces us we can carry on living our pre couple lives when we are in a relationship with somebody.

do we need to consult with them about everywhere we go and everything we say and do?

as far as i’m concerned that job belongs to Jesus before my spouse but obviously I wouldn’t make any decisions that affect them personally without consultation.

it’s not good enough to just crack an Abraham and say all right wife let’s get going to the promised land.

she might have a few things to say to him first.

we are not all of us  called to a moving tent ministry thank God.

I can barely handle life on the road for a month or 7 yet alone a year or more.

try 40 years wandering around the wilderness cos of your disobedience.

now that’s a tough concrete apple to swallow worse than the bitter waters of marah made polluted by the people’s complaining , a consequence of not checking their attitude at the door when they come into the presence of the Lord.

we need to have that attitude of gratitude for God giving us life everywhere He happens to find us on this planet.

just like the tree purifying the waters of marah once tossed in by moses  in exodus 15:24 God can make our lives sweet tasting and pleasant to His sight as well as appealing to others who may be potential converts for His kingdom.

God can uproot the bitterness of our hearts and transform our minds so we are no longer looking back with longing for the past like lot’s wife or with contempt upon those who have wronged us but are able to perceive them with the redeeming eyes of Jesus who always views us as capable of changing until we have no breath left in our lungs.

right now i”m listening to ce ce winans beautiful life transforming song about letting the world fall in love with Jesus.

that is my prayer for all of you if you are not head over heels infatuated with Him already.

whatever my foibles as a writer that is insignificant compared to the glory of God which He is able to bring out of all our lives.

let us not waste a single second of our time complaining but let us switch our focus tracks immediately as soon as complaint comes by nipping it in the bud and quickly counting our blessings even if we have to dig around for a while inside ourselves to find something worth rejoicing about.

we will always find something even if it’s only that thank God I woke up this morning

even if we wish we didn’t- God had a reason for allowing us to breathe another day

and even if all you ever did to interact with the world was smile at the postman and wave to your neighbour walking the dog past your house God can use those tiny interactions for His glory.

so don’t complain about God not rewarding you with a major ministry cos He only gives us what we are capable of handling and He makes everything beautiful in His time.

I used to complain about not having babies or a wife until I figured out just how much hard work was required to maintain both.

now I just wait on the Lord to bring that perfect partner across my path and like adara butler says actively seek while remaining in His will .

we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us- philippians 4:13

Jesus said who of us by worrying can add a second to their life

in fact our complaints have the opposite effect on our ability to sustain life.

they draw us closer to death by the minute.

all of us want to have a long and happy life but we don’t all want to do what is required to bring us to that place of lasting joy that can only be found in the loving arms of Jesus.

hidden within you is the potential and power to change the world if your will is aligned with the maker of the universe ❤



Bakersfield blues?

I wonder what it is that convinces us that the ones we love are going to leave us or even that they love us in the first place.

some of us think better when we have nobody around to distract us but I am not one of those people.

when I am all by myself I find myself struggling to figure out how to find the words to say what I need to say because I am not fighting to hear the voice I want to hear inside my head.

instead I am being intimidated by this unearthly quiet.

though the birds will give me stiff competition for the claim that I am indeed all alone by myself with no one to keep me company and nothing to listen to and potentially take umbrage that their sweet song isn’t being included in my chronicles of my listening experience.

I wonder what it is that attracts some people to certain types of people.

sometimes they are buying the lie that only one person in the universe can possibly sustain their romantic interests.

other times they have bought into the lie about their sexual identity and think there is no way else for them to be other than the opposite of how God intended them to act think and behave because the tragedy they have experienced has convinced them that their choice was removed before their birth when actually it has always existed just waiting in the wings of their imagination to spring forth and declare itself openly for all the world to see.

🙂 selah

I felt like God was convincing and convicting me to turn off the notifications of specific people who were causing me to stumble spiritually.

I am no longer the kind of person to block someone straight off the bat unless I feel that our interactions will not be conducive to the betterment of my spiritual journey with Jesus.

it is too easy to add someone and then block them straight away and add them straight back again on social media.

this makes me look less like a moral purist and more like a schizophrenic love handler. 🙂

it’s true what james says that the tongue can be used to build people up or tear them down.

it is potentially set on fire by hell.

it is the hardest beast in the universe to tame and the trickiest instrument to tune to Gods intentions.

out of the same mouth proceed both blessings and  cursings.

with it we build up our neighbour and simultaneously tear him or her down sometimes almost within the same breath.

we are nice to people’s faces and curse them in our thoughts.

when they have a relationship with someone we wish we had a relationship with we have been known to wish they were dead so we could stick our feet in their shoes or slip our bones beneath their skin yet would their partner choose us if we had our current personality instead of the one they fell in love with which may or may not be the person they married?

exes are like the dregs in the coffee cup .

they’re not worth going back for.

you don’t need closure.

you wont find anything good there so you may as well do yourself a favour and not stick around.

you don’t need closure you need the peace of mind that only Jesus can bring your heart.

I know I sure do 🙂

live in peace or relapse into perdition

assume a position of neutrality unless you want a constant state of war within yourself to remain a reality.

we should go to war with any being that lurks around this earth except God.

if we fight against God we are always guaranteed to lose.

we should only ever fight people with words spoken from a heart of love unless He advises us otherwise.

the world and all its whirling pool of peep holes

I was convicted yesterday by the demonic nature of my own curiosity.

I found myself being drawn to investigate the sex scandals of pastors who I didn’t even know existed until yesterday.

it saddens my heart when a Christian rapper and well known gospel artist is caught cheating on their wives.

I can barely hold a relationship down for a year yet alone get married so I’m not gonna qualify myself in a position to judge others and their own private lives but I do think that people shouldn’t get into a relationship especially with all the pizazz of marriage unless theyre prepared to stick around for the long haul.

they shouldn’t expect it to always be a peachy beach or a bed of roses.

I may not be married but I learn from the example of what to do and what not to do in a covenant marriage relationship that’s right in Gods sight by observing the lives of my friends who are.

I don’t know why I keep getting drawn into long distance relationships.

I guess you could say its a lack of self control on my part or perhaps its the allure of excitement that compels me to seek the adventure of romance overseas instead of interstate or locally.

I was successfully enough with a dating/ friendship website to get a girl to vaguely commit to marrying me at some future date  but gained a firmer commitment from my former love who I dashed the hopes of just cos I expected something magical to happen with a lovely African American woman who though she may have been the perfect woman for somebody definitely wasn’t the one for me or maybe she was and I just stuffed it up by pestering her too much with questions and  commenting on everything she did or every picture she took of herself on social media.

big mistake.

have I learned my lesson.

do I know post with permission instead of without it.

not so much.

but I try to refrain from posting on every single thing they post just in case I get another furious response of blockage due to my ‘despicable’ ‘deplorable’ ‘laudable’ behaviour.

at least she was better than the chick who tried to say that I needed to have her permission before making romantic advances towards her.

I don’t think so.

she didn’t apply that rule to her own love life or pursuit of men so I don’t think its fair that she applied the do not pursue rule to me alone.

plus I didn’t even get to the fact that in her book she focussed more on how the abortion counsellor made her feel like a piece of poop when trying to convince her not to have an abortion which was illegal for her age in the state of new York more than she did the act of murder she committed at the hands of her offspring although she did call it wrong.

it’s easy to disconnect ourselves from our sins.

it’s easier for us to focus on the sins of others than our own sins.

we go away from the mirror and immediately forget what we look like.

we think our poop smells like roses when really it just smells like poop.

we should look at the giant tree branch poking out of our own eye before we focus on the tiny speck of dust in another’s eye as much as that needs to be extricated  so they don’t cause harm to themselves by its presence.

if we are living holy lives we will be in a better position to point out the sin in others or to bring them to a place of conviction through the Christ loving example of our lives that never says die and never gives up on their friendship no matter how much pain they cause us or themselves, no matter how far they stray from God’s covering of blessings, regardless of how much they criticize or condemn us, despite the fact they may not appreciate or value us anywhere near as much as we think they should.

the question we should be asking ourselves is are we being the kind of friend to others we want others to be to us?



I don’t let silence scream holy truth loud in my heart nearly as often as I should

This blog post will be written to the soundtrack of lecraes anomaly. You probably won’t pick up any references to Christian hiphop from this post other than this entry point even subconsciously. I just thought you might like to know what is influencing me to say the things I say and do the things I do. Mostly it’s Jesus. Sometimes it’s the devil. I aim to make hip hop on a higher level but sometimes I stay on the lowest one just because I talk myself out of being bold and courageous in expressing my faith when filtered through the healing power of music.


When she calls me baby love sweet heart dear papi or daddy i think we are in a relationship when maybe I’m just buying my own illusion from the dream factory created solely within my own overactive imagination.

Some women and men use terms of endearment so regularly and flippantly they start to lose their specialness,  resonance, significance and ability to impact us with their original intended tenderness.


I don’t wanna be that dude that makes promises to women i don’t intend to keep or lack the wherewithal and follow through to pursue from start to finish.


People try to cut my lyrics up in stanzas they were never meant to be squeezed into.


It’s true bad company corrupts good character or morals.

Ditto for books, art and music.

I only talk about what I do.

I haven’t preached enough in my life to call myself a preacher.

Going to Zambia changed the standard for me about what it means to have a pastors heart.

I saw a pastor take in a widow and her kids into his own home.

Being a pastor or  padre means so much more than sharing sermons on Sundays as important and significant and beneficial as that is as a tool to turn the foolish into fountains of heavenly wisdom.

It’s doing things I’ve hardly ever almost never done like visiting the sick and prisoners clothing the naked and feeding the poor which going by the standard of Matthew 25 should be a regular part of our Christian experience.


I’m far more adept at dishing out advice to others than taking it from them.

I do try and take my own self prescribed tough pills to swallow though.


If it’s arrogance to presume that it’s possible to preserve my innocence go ahead and call me puffed up in the head like an ego tripping peacock flaring out his feathers but hold up before you stick your dukes up the provisio for the maintenance of my purity is contingent entirely on the depth of my affection for Jesus.


I boast of nothing save of that which Christ has managed to achieve through my life.

Can we differentiate between prayers and wishes or is a wish just a prayer that may not necessarily be directed at a specific deity but nevertheless manages to reach the ear of a divine benevolent source of comfort and protection despite the possible presence of incorrect motives in our asking

people used to call me a player long before I displayed the attributes of a callous cold hearted dude who uses women like snotrags and disposes of them just as easily.

I know I’ve gotta stop being that rotten dirty corpse like scumbag that continually habitually tries to convince a woman to leave her boyfriend.

Be careful when you tell yourself i could never be that person lest you fall in the same trap you scoff at others for slipping in.

There but for the grace of God go we – William Bradford English British martyr

I do not point out others sin merely for the purpose of paying them out or kicking them when they’re down but shining the light of Gods truth in their eyes to reveal His nature deeply embedded within themselves often deeper than any of us are consciously aware of.

God has hidden His word in the heart of all humanity.

That’s why when we act humane displaying kindness care or compassion especially to our self proclaimed enemies who kill our families, rob our possessions, fire us from our jobs cos of our faith speaking just as loud through words as it does through actions it is then in that cosmic moment we reflect the heart of Jesus like heavens truest most reliable mirrors.

When trust has been destroyed by lust pride or greed it takes time to rebuild and maybe it never will be reconstructed in humans again for me but it always remains in God the stable foundation of my faith who never alters with times passage but reminds us in His living life giving word that He remains the same yesterday today and the ever returning boomerang of tomorrow which is promised as a certainty to noone in this mortal form yet lingers trapped in the Carbonite of eternal hope that it shall always arrive in some shape or form.

Some people ask for contributions of your viewpoint when truly all their bones joints and marrow demand of you is a meaningless ticker tape parade of false flattery for the dubious achievement of continuing to breathe.

I know none of us are without struggle but some of our struggles are more obvious to the eyes of the world than others.


2nd spin

Given that lecraes album goes for 58 minutes that should give you some indication of how long it takes me to compose a blog post

I know my life would be richer in experience and understanding the way the world works if I did more traveling.

I usually don’t go overseas without receiving an invitation but sometimes I practically invite myself.

I’ve never legally out stayed my welcome except for once in fiji where my air ticket gave me permission to stay 7 months yet the government only officially gave me 2 weeks cos I marked business on the spot on the arrival form that said purpose of visit instead of scribbling down holidays cos I thought doing volunteer work for a pastor qualified as business.

Little did I know most government departments view the world through bureaucratic eyes and look at things differently to the rest of us.

I’m trying to start practicing giving all my attention to just one woman now to serve me in good stead practicing for when I eventually get married.


Yesterday a woman told me i should wear an apron with nothing on underneath.

She was on the older side if she was middle aged.

Some say I’m middle aged already.

She was significantly further up the hill than me.

I don’t condemn her for talking horny and acting inappropriate towards a customer.

She condemned her reputation already with her actions.

Now let’s analyze for a second what would possess a woman in her right mind to hit on a customer even in jest.

For the record she initiated i didn’t ask for it or even speak first or bat my manly eyelids in her direction.

Perhaps she’s lonely desperate and dateless but that’s still no excuse to cut loose from ladylike decorum like that.

Manners maketh the man or woman.

It’s so much more than just not swearing or avoiding putting your elbows on the table and crossing your knife and fork splaid across the plate although that’s part of it.

Man looks at the outside appearance but God looks at the heart.

He views us from the inside out.

I have to keep reminding myself of that.

We have to learn what to save and junk in our culture habits and lifestyles when we come into a relationship with Jesus.

Anything that doesn’t glorify or honor Him in what I do say or think must go right now.

Any part of me that tries to exalt itself above His holiness must be extricated from my personhood Pronto.

It’s not that I don’t want the world to change it’s just that I’m not prepared for what might happen if and when it does.

Are you prepared for the return of Christ. ?

Sometimes I question if I am either.

Come quickly thief of my heart.

Don’t depart in my time of war or peace richness or poverty.

Why do we doubt your presence in the circumstances of one of these scenarios neglecting our souls hidden knowledge He is our ever present help in troubled times.

Seek Him first always homies😃