have mercy on me O God because of your unfailing love
because of your great compassion blot out the stain of my sins
wash me clean from my guilt purify me from my sin
for I recognize my rebellion it haunts me day and night
against you and you alone have I sinned
I have done what is evil in your sight
you will be proved right in what you say and your judgment against me is just
for I was born a sinner- yes from the moment my mother conceived me
but you desire honesty from the womb , teaching me wisdom even there
purify me from my sins and I will be clean , wash me and I will be whiter than snow
oh give me back my joy again you have broken me now let me rejoice
don’t keep looking at my sins, remove the stain of my guilt
create in me a clean heart O God, renew a loyal spirit within me
don’t banish me from your presence and don’t take your Holy Spirit from me
restore to me the joy of your salvation and make me willing to obey you
then I will teach your ways to rebels and they will return to you
forgive me for shedding blood O God who saves
then I will joyfully sing of your forgiveness
unseal my lips O Lord that my mouth may praise you
you do not desire a sacrifice or I would offer one
you do not want a burnt offering
the sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit
you will not reject a broken and repentant heart O God
look with favour on zion and help her rebuild the walls of jerusalem
then you will be pleased with sacrifices offered in the right spirit with burnt offerings and whole burnt offerings then bulls will again be sacrificed on your altar
my sins have stained me but my God is merciful and He will make a way when there seems to be no way for me to change.
I am always thinking of the wrong things I did in the past and I am scared of messing up in the present and the future.
I am haunted by the ghost of sins past even when I am not wrestling with them in the present.
this psalm is about david’s affair with Bathsheba.
he didn’t just sin against God he sinned against Bathsheba by having sex with her before marriage, he sinned against her husband by stealing his wife and setting him up so he would be killed in the battlefield, he sinned against the families of Bathsheba and Uriah by taking advantage of her when she was bathing naked on the roof.
never mind why she was bathing naked on the roof.
I will leave this up to you dear reader to figure out whether this was an innocent action or an intentional plan to snare the king for herself.
there could be no room in the house where she was able to bathe herself.
she may not have known he was going to be on his roof leering at her at that time.
it does take two to tango however and though we don’t know whether he raped her or whether she gave herself up to him willingly we do know that they both sinned against God and their partners.
you may say that she didn’t sin if she was forced to commit sin but we are still sinners if we are forced to sin against our will.
God always forgives and He always loves us back into His arms if we are willing to come to Him and turn away from our wicked ways.
God is right to permit us to be punished when we do wrong.
He takes vengeance on our behalf when wrong is done against us.
we can recall Nathan’s parable to david of the poor man who had a little baby lamb who he loved dearly.
the rich man who lived next door was too stingy to get his shepherds to pick a lamb out of his many flocks to feed his friend who came to visit so he stole the poor man’s lamb and gave it to his visitor to eat.
david full of righteous indignation when he heard this story demanded that justice be done and this unscrupulous rich man got what was coming to him.
Nathan then woke him up to his hypocrisy and made him realize that he was the rich man who stole an innocent lamb of a wife off a man who was so righteous he would not spend one night away from the battlefield while his fellow soldiers lay dying despite the longing in his heart to enjoy the pleasures of his wifes company, his loyalty to his king and country was greater than his kings loyalty to him.
we can learn from Uriah the value of being committed and dedicated to a task.
we know that the first baby david had with Bathsheba died shortly after childbirth.
imagine her devastation bringing a child into the world only to watch him die.
imagine enduring all that pain for nothing, knowing in that moment that her chances of creating a legacy for herself had gone kaput.
still God was merciful and faithful and He provided a replacement child just as He did for adam and eve with seth after abel was killed by his evil minded brother cain.
we are born into sin but God is able to change the direction of our lives from hell to heaven so the way we were born doesn’t have to define our destiny anymore.
children pick up everything we say even when they are in the wombs of their mother.
everything a child hears and sees from the earliest age stays with them and never leaves them.
don’t think you can ever watch a movie , listen to a song, look at a piece of art, watch a dance or read a book without it affecting you.
you will always be influenced for better or for worse from the womb to the tomb.
God wants us to be honest with Him and others cos He is always completely transparent with us and He wants His nature to always be present in us.
the reason why He told us not to lie when He gave moses the ten commandments is because when we lie we inject the nature of the devil within us and give him permission to take us over.
also when we deceive others whether intentionally or accidentally we make others have suspicions and doubts about trusting us.
this also occurs when we break their trust by spilling their secrets in ears that were never intended to hear them.
God calls us to be people of honesty and integrity.
we must let our yes be yes and our no be no.
we must be people who keep our promises.
as Christians we must be known as people who don’t let others down otherwise we are making Jesus look bad by associating Himself with us cos rightly or wrongly people connect the deeds of the body of Christ with its head Jesus.
the second I genuinely repent God instantly forgives me and is able to help me to change the way I am cos I have given HIm permission to have HIs way in me and work in my life.
in order to appreciate what it is to have the joy of the Lord in us sometimes we have to be broken seemingly beyond repair yet even in that moment we are never beyond the reach of Jesus.
God always sees our sins but He also sees His potential for redemption in us.
my sins display disloyalty towards my Lord and king and reveal my allegiance to the mindset of the enemy.
I know a house divided against itself will not stand so if I am unrepentant of my sin the Holy Spirit won’t want to be anywhere near me.
most of the time our problem is just as much our disobedience as our unwillingness to walk in obedience.
the more we force ourselves to obey God the greater the desire will increase within us to please HIm.
I can personally attest to having experienced great joy oozing around my spirit when I resist the lure of the enemy and choose to walk in the pure hearted nature of Christ.
Lord I pray all those who are rebelling against you turn back to you right now.
I pray they will recognize their need for you and feed upon your word like the tastiest cake that is never too sweet for the appetite , that enriches the spirit and gives strength to my bones.
I never had to ask God forgiveness for shedding innocent blood yet I have murdered people in my heart so I am just as guilty in God’s eyes.
my friend has experienced nightmares and I have experienced this in real life, these moments when you literally can’t speak the name of Jesus and you feel like demons are gagging your mouth but God hears the silent whispers of your spirit and drags those demons off kicking and screaming when you cry out to HIm whether out loud or inside your head.
sometimes we look for quick fix solutions of pouring bucketloads of coins in the offering basket rather than looking to the only solution truly acceptable to God which is to have a heart and spirit that is broken and repentant.
it is not that God despises your tithes and offerings but you are deluding yourselves if you think that giving money to church will get you into heaven just as much as feeding the hungry, clothing the naked, visiting prisoners and sick people or bicycling long distance for charity will get you through the pearly gates.
these are all nice things to do and we are commanded to do them ( all except the bicycling part) but they are not what qualifies us for entrance into heaven they are just fruits of what it means to be so full of gratitude for what Christ accomplished for us on the cross that it makes us want to serve Him diligently with every waking breath.
we can learn the lesson from david’s life how important the issue of sexual purity is to God and how much He desires for us to flee from immorality and ungodly lust.
we are like the broken down walls of Jerusalem in need of Christ’s repair through bleeding on that cross.
God only knows what exactly constitutes a sacrifice offered in the right spirit.
we have some clues from the new testament as well as the old.
cain didn’t annoy God because he gave him fruits and vegetables only.
it was the fact he was offering God his sloppy seconds instead of his best produce that was the problem.
from the new testament we can look to the example of Jesus how He told us that if we are going to the temple of God and we have something against our brother or sister we must first make things right with them so our sacrifice of worship is not tainted by impurity in our thoughts.
live long and prosper friends of God and seekers of truth ❤