the case for Christ by lee strobel movie review

a man and his pregnant wife are at a café their daughter chokes on a gumball and almost dies but for the intervention of a nurse. the nurse says that she was directed to that café and not to another one by the Lord. this makes a huge impact in the wife who had a Christian upbringing but was turned off god by her atheist husband. the husband struggles with understanding his wife especially after she becomes a Christian following a further intervention of gods answer to prayer with saving the life of their baby boy. the husband becomes determined to prove Christianity and the message of the bible is untrue by exposing what he calls the myth of the death and resurrection of our lord jesus  Christ. his journey takes him to several experts who confound him with the truth with which he struggles. finally he has to admit that the gospel message is true and he believes receives and accepts Christ as his saviour. it was based on a true story of a person who later wrote many Christian books about his journey to faith and he became a pastor and a teacher at a theological college. he is part of willow creek community church pastored by rick warren the author of the purpose driven life. at first his wife responds to the incident in the café by saying she was lucky that she met a Christian nurse. she soon changes her tune to one that acknowledges the influence of Christ in her life. she was the same nurse who helped to deliver both their children. she went to a local church. the nurse influenced her to go to church. the husband lee attacks the nurse  verbally and tells her not to come near his family. he was working for the Chicago tribune newspaper. his Christian co-worker challenged him to go for the jugular and examine the truth behind the resurrection. he didn’t feel threatened by the potential that lee might be able to discredit his faith as a result. lee went to a medical doctor, a psychologist, pastors ( including a former archaeologist) as well as his atheist co-worker to obtain source material for his research. his travels took him to California. he found himself becoming increasingly enstranged from his wife as he found himself unable to reconcile himself with her newfound belief in something as opposed to nothing. she was angry at him when their daughter alley or Allison asks who is Jesus because the nurse at the café mentions the name of Jesus influencing her decision to choose the restaurant where alley was choking on her gumball. lee says that Jesus is a fairytale and doesn’t elaborate on who He is. He just says that they are a family of atheists and they don’t believe in God. his wife gets mad because she had previously decided with her husband to let their daughter decide for herself whether or not she believed in God. lee felt like his wife was cheating on him with Jesus. he was hurt when she said that meeting Jesus was the most significant event that had taken place in her life. he felt like he was playing second fiddle to Jesus. this is something we all must do. Jesus said anyone who doesn’t love me more than family and friends isn’t fit for the kingdom of heaven. we must be willing to leave everything else behind in order to follow HIm and remove from our lies everything that doesnt honour HIm . his wife had previously told him I will love you and only you. his boss wouldn’t let him publish a story on his journey from atheism to Christianity  cos he said he would be made a laughingstock. his wife prayed successfully that his heart would be turned from a heart of stone into a heart of flesh. his atheist co-worker has a bad relationship with his daughter because he is an atheist and she is a believer. Bertrand russel is quoted in the film. he was known to have had a bad relationship with his father. this is a common thread amongst famous atheistic authors. they often have father wounds. it is often said that the way we think or feel about our father determines the way we think or feel about God. this is evidenced in the movie by lees decision not to call his dad when he gives birth to a son. instead he forces him to read the announcement in the newspaper like everybody else. it wasn’t until he died that he discovered that his dad kept a folder of all his stories and kept the announcement of his joining the Chicago tribune as reporter in his wallet. he never knew that his father was secretly proud of him. from this we can learn the lesson that we always must express our pride in the achievements of those we love as well as our love for them in case we never get the opportunity to tell them. when the pastor presents evidence to lee he shows him a copy of homer’s odyssey as well as fragments of an ancient Egyptian copy of the bible. he says there is more evidence for the historical reliability of the death and resurrection of Jesus than there is for any other historical figure including Julius ceasar and Socrates. we learn from this movie that historical reliability is not discounted but confirmed by contradictions in accounts of the events that occurred cos this dissimilarity would make it less likely for two people to compare notes and fake an account. the closeness in time between Jesus’ resurrection and the first written accounts from unbiased sources is further proof of the accuracy of this event. the American medical association has published proof in their journal that Jesus’ death can be proven by medical evidence cos there is no way that He would have survived being pierced with a spear and blood and water flowing out of HIm which was a result of asphyxiation or losing His breath in His struggle to take one without pain on the cross. He was scourged with bits of bone and glass. He was whipped almost to the point of death which is why it was too much of a burden for HIm to carry the cross all by His lonesome.

one proof we get from the movie of Jesus’ death and resurrection being real is the fact that in a male dominated society the four authors of the gospels of matthew mark luke and john saw fit to mention that Jesus’ resurrected glorified body was first seen by women who went to prepare sweet smelling fragrances for His corpse.

yet further proof is found in the fact that no roman soldier worth his salt would allow a body he was guarding the tomb of to be snuck away on his watch or else his own head would be on the chopping block as a result.

the Islamic faith falsely claims that Jesus’ body was replaced by someone else on the  cross or that He was merely sleeping and later resuscitated in secret by the disciples.

there was once somebody who attempted to crucify himself for world peace.

he did not manage to endure the suffering involved.

Jesus did.

there was over 500 impartial witnesses to His resurrection including Pharisees who had a vested interest in seeing Him remain dead and yet were unable to deny the proof of His resurrected body walking among them.

also in the movie we see a man wrongfully convicted of injuring a cop.

in truth it was the cop that shot him first so the man sent to jail was set up .

he had shot his gun earlier in another incident that had nothing to do with the cop on that same night.


he was a member of the gangster disciples.

he felt like he was left with no choice but to plead guilty cos the evidence was pointed against him.

lees newspaper had to retract the story of his guilt in injuring a cop.

lee was so sidetracked by trying to prove his wife’s faith wrong that he completely missed the concealed weapon being carried by the cop in the form of an ordinary pen.

the guy he got wrongfully convicted told him that he missed the evidence cos he only saw what he wanted to see.

this is true of the way we all approach God.

at the end of the day it comes down to a personal  choice of whether we want to be convicted by the overwhelming evidence for God’s existence all around us.

lees Christian mate told him to put up or shut up in his search for whether Jesus was really who His followers claimed He was cos he had abandoned his search before he reached a conclusion that satisfied his previous delusions about the existence of God.

lee went from a guy who was full of his own ego trying to offload copies of his first published book on everyone in the office to being a humbled guy who approached life from a perspective of seeking to do what is pleasing to do in God’s sight before he satisfied his own personal needs.

in truth we all need to do what is pleasing in Gods sight we just don’t know we do until we want to do it. 🙂

it challenges some people’s perceptions of what exactly constitutes church when lee gives his heart to the Lord in front of his wife not using any fancy words but just pouring out his heart at the feet of Jesus and completely surrendering his life to His will.

we learn from the movie that lees daughter later became a Christian author and his son went to bible college.

lee went from storming out the house on his wife and sleeping on the couch to openly communicating with her about their shared faith and mutual goals to raise their kids in the ways of Jesus.

we get a mild chuckle over the fact that lee’s wife was joking about him doing his research on the bottom of a can of beer 🙂

one of the authors lee spoke to turned to Christ as a result of a personal crisis brought on by the death of his wife.

lee started out being able to talk to his wife about anything under the sun but it wasn’t until he decided to surrender his life to God that they were able to restore a free flow of communication with each other.

it was lee’s daughter who woke him up to his conscience by saying daddy stop being mean to mummy.

too many daddies are mean to their mummies

they may make the excuse that they don’t mean to be

they may even pathetically and in a cowardly manner attempt to pin the blame for their anger onto their spouse when they themselves are responsible for its source.

the reverse is also true in regards to how wives treat their husbands.

we do not see the movie openly explore the fact that the wounded look on the face of lees boss as a result of his story getting an innocent man wrongfully convicted may be influenced by the fact they share the same skin color as well as the personal burden placed upon the reputation of his newspaper as a result of this error in judgement.

his boss hates it when people swing the door shut on him.

only one time in the movie do we see lee respectfully closing the door in deference to his bosses’ personal preference of peace and quiet when he’s in the process of editing his thriving periodical.

it must have taken the African American nurse that helped lees wife all of her self  control and good graces not to burst out in anger but simply respond with a smile on her face when lee came flying at her spitting chips about the fact that she was influencing his wife to believe in God.

we can all learn a lot from that woman.

just because we have the democratic right to lash out and fight back with our mouths when someone attacks us doesn’t mean we should.

she achieved more by her silence and smiling response than she ever could by shaming him over his pathetic and hateful reaction to his wifes decision to  choose to make Jesus Lord of her life which didn’t affect his ability to breathe and live his life according to his wishes one iota.

he tried to forbid his wife from believing in Jesus to no avail.

she ended up persuading him to go himself even though he was motivated by a desire to do an expose on pastors getting involved in sex scandals.

God can even use people’s twisted motivations to bring them to the cross and redeem their souls.

in the movie lee referred to a john as a toilet or the client of a prostitute mocking the fact that his dad wanted him to name his son john after his middle name which had been a strobel tradition for generations but he refused.

his reasons are not mentioned but it is possible that lee was motivated by a reaction to his religious upbringing.

his wife is disgusted that he would use such colourful language to refer to a whore in front of his daughter.

he was not there for his wife to take part in her delivery of their second baby when he should have been because he was too busy gallivanting across the country in his attempts to refute the truth .

his wife’s nurse friend manages to console her and convince her to keep on fighting for what she believes in and to keep standing firm in her faith.

it is funny to see the paradox of lee and his wife both exploring faith simultaneously one with a mind to discover more about the truth and the other with the determination to eliminate its relevance to our daily lives.

praise God that lee’s marriage wasn’t destroyed by faith as he feared but enhanced and strengthened by it.

no matter what your religious belief or lack thereof you will find the same will be true for you in your relationships if you choose both Christianity and making Jesus Lord and master of your life, allowing HIm to guide your thoughts and decisions and to always consider what pleases Him as more valuable than what merely gratifies the desires of our flesh.

I was partially helped in my writing of this post by my dad’s ability to recollect the nitty gritty details of the movie and expand upon its themes.

it is sad to see that lee’s boss did not have enough value in their friendship to grant his wishes to pursue a story that would have actually brought more attention to his newspaper than he had ever deemed possible and potentially jettisoned it into the most widely circulated newspaper on the planet.

but of course we will never know what might have been only what has been and what is and with the help of the Holy Spirit’s prophetic knowledge through the bible and the spoken word of God what is to come 🙂

I would personally be interested in knowing as follow up if any of lees fellow reporters became a Christian as a result of his research knowing that lee was a man of facts and he would not stake losing his reputation and a well paying job on perpetuating a lie if he did not in fact know beyond a shadow of a doubt that he was reporting the truth.

though some these days do not believe in journalistic integrity lee was from the old school where you investigate all the relevant facts before you publish a story and get references from as many sources as possible.

the only thing that disappointed me with this movie was that hell and sin weren’t ever mentioned nor repentance in the process of lee turning his life over to Jesus.

that doesn’t mean he didn’t say that.

it just means it wasn’t included in the movie.

lee was producer so he had some degree of control over the result of what was produced.

of course he would of had to negotiate with studio heads and publicity departments as to what was publically acceptable and what would be funded and green lighted by the movie company.

I am glad he was still able to exercise a degree of creative control over the story of his life.

his wife said that when she fell in love with Jesus her love for her husband only increased.

this is evidence of the transforming work that takes place in our lives when we decide to follow Jesus .

what He requires of us is more than a casual acquaintance but 100 % commitment to serve HIm in every area of our lives and worship HIm with each aspect of it.

it was amusing to see lee watching from between two trees as his wife became baptised.

it is important to mention that she was baptised in the name of the father the son and the Holy Spirit and fully immersed in lake water as this is the biblical methodology and precedent and not every church or believer in Christ believes in doing it that way although it is the only way that is best and right.

although we do not see lee getting baptized we can hopefully assume that he later did in fact make that step of commitment to Christ.

we do know he took a bold step by witnessing to his boss and proving that the boss of his soul was more important than any human who handed over his pay cheque regardless if he ended up in the gutter or a mansion as a result . 🙂

I pray that many will decide to make a commitment to Jesus after drawing their own conclusions about this movie and the validity of its claims.

it is a wordy movie so don’t watch it if you are the kind of person that prefers action packed block busters full of blood and guts , gore and explosive fireworks.

but watch it if you want a heart warming drama that will make you question the possibility of whether God exists and potentially decide to consider HIm for yourself if you do not already claim to be one of His followers and love HIm enough to lay down your own life for the furtherance of the gospel and deliverance of all mankind.

happy viewing 🙂

may God bless your journeys in life wherever you’re at in your walk with Him


Michigan girls inspired this post

what is it about this world that makes it so impossible to figure out?

why do we delude ourselves that we are able to have a relationship that lasts for the entirety of our lives without running into any sign of trouble?

isn’t it that very trouble that helps mould and shape us?

if we didn’t have any challenges to overcome how can we truly claim to be in love?

if neither partner is ever required to compromise to keep what they have alive then we are basically just sharing the same roof we may as well be in a business meeting unless we make it our business to merge our lives together with theirs.

I don’t know what it is that convinces us we can carry on living our pre couple lives when we are in a relationship with somebody.

do we need to consult with them about everywhere we go and everything we say and do?

as far as i’m concerned that job belongs to Jesus before my spouse but obviously I wouldn’t make any decisions that affect them personally without consultation.

it’s not good enough to just crack an Abraham and say all right wife let’s get going to the promised land.

she might have a few things to say to him first.

we are not all of us  called to a moving tent ministry thank God.

I can barely handle life on the road for a month or 7 yet alone a year or more.

try 40 years wandering around the wilderness cos of your disobedience.

now that’s a tough concrete apple to swallow worse than the bitter waters of marah made polluted by the people’s complaining , a consequence of not checking their attitude at the door when they come into the presence of the Lord.

we need to have that attitude of gratitude for God giving us life everywhere He happens to find us on this planet.

just like the tree purifying the waters of marah once tossed in by moses  in exodus 15:24 God can make our lives sweet tasting and pleasant to His sight as well as appealing to others who may be potential converts for His kingdom.

God can uproot the bitterness of our hearts and transform our minds so we are no longer looking back with longing for the past like lot’s wife or with contempt upon those who have wronged us but are able to perceive them with the redeeming eyes of Jesus who always views us as capable of changing until we have no breath left in our lungs.

right now i”m listening to ce ce winans beautiful life transforming song about letting the world fall in love with Jesus.

that is my prayer for all of you if you are not head over heels infatuated with Him already.

whatever my foibles as a writer that is insignificant compared to the glory of God which He is able to bring out of all our lives.

let us not waste a single second of our time complaining but let us switch our focus tracks immediately as soon as complaint comes by nipping it in the bud and quickly counting our blessings even if we have to dig around for a while inside ourselves to find something worth rejoicing about.

we will always find something even if it’s only that thank God I woke up this morning

even if we wish we didn’t- God had a reason for allowing us to breathe another day

and even if all you ever did to interact with the world was smile at the postman and wave to your neighbour walking the dog past your house God can use those tiny interactions for His glory.

so don’t complain about God not rewarding you with a major ministry cos He only gives us what we are capable of handling and He makes everything beautiful in His time.

I used to complain about not having babies or a wife until I figured out just how much hard work was required to maintain both.

now I just wait on the Lord to bring that perfect partner across my path and like adara butler says actively seek while remaining in His will .

we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us- philippians 4:13

Jesus said who of us by worrying can add a second to their life

in fact our complaints have the opposite effect on our ability to sustain life.

they draw us closer to death by the minute.

all of us want to have a long and happy life but we don’t all want to do what is required to bring us to that place of lasting joy that can only be found in the loving arms of Jesus.

hidden within you is the potential and power to change the world if your will is aligned with the maker of the universe ❤


Bakersfield blues?

I wonder what it is that convinces us that the ones we love are going to leave us or even that they love us in the first place.

some of us think better when we have nobody around to distract us but I am not one of those people.

when I am all by myself I find myself struggling to figure out how to find the words to say what I need to say because I am not fighting to hear the voice I want to hear inside my head.

instead I am being intimidated by this unearthly quiet.

though the birds will give me stiff competition for the claim that I am indeed all alone by myself with no one to keep me company and nothing to listen to and potentially take umbrage that their sweet song isn’t being included in my chronicles of my listening experience.

I wonder what it is that attracts some people to certain types of people.

sometimes they are buying the lie that only one person in the universe can possibly sustain their romantic interests.

other times they have bought into the lie about their sexual identity and think there is no way else for them to be other than the opposite of how God intended them to act think and behave because the tragedy they have experienced has convinced them that their choice was removed before their birth when actually it has always existed just waiting in the wings of their imagination to spring forth and declare itself openly for all the world to see.

🙂 selah

I felt like God was convincing and convicting me to turn off the notifications of specific people who were causing me to stumble spiritually.

I am no longer the kind of person to block someone straight off the bat unless I feel that our interactions will not be conducive to the betterment of my spiritual journey with Jesus.

it is too easy to add someone and then block them straight away and add them straight back again on social media.

this makes me look less like a moral purist and more like a schizophrenic love handler. 🙂

it’s true what james says that the tongue can be used to build people up or tear them down.

it is potentially set on fire by hell.

it is the hardest beast in the universe to tame and the trickiest instrument to tune to Gods intentions.

out of the same mouth proceed both blessings and  cursings.

with it we build up our neighbour and simultaneously tear him or her down sometimes almost within the same breath.

we are nice to people’s faces and curse them in our thoughts.

when they have a relationship with someone we wish we had a relationship with we have been known to wish they were dead so we could stick our feet in their shoes or slip our bones beneath their skin yet would their partner choose us if we had our current personality instead of the one they fell in love with which may or may not be the person they married?

exes are like the dregs in the coffee cup .

they’re not worth going back for.

you don’t need closure.

you wont find anything good there so you may as well do yourself a favour and not stick around.

you don’t need closure you need the peace of mind that only Jesus can bring your heart.

I know I sure do 🙂

live in peace or relapse into perdition

assume a position of neutrality unless you want a constant state of war within yourself to remain a reality.

we should go to war with any being that lurks around this earth except God.

if we fight against God we are always guaranteed to lose.

we should only ever fight people with words spoken from a heart of love unless He advises us otherwise.

the world and all its whirling pool of peep holes

I was convicted yesterday by the demonic nature of my own curiosity.

I found myself being drawn to investigate the sex scandals of pastors who I didn’t even know existed until yesterday.

it saddens my heart when a Christian rapper and well known gospel artist is caught cheating on their wives.

I can barely hold a relationship down for a year yet alone get married so I’m not gonna qualify myself in a position to judge others and their own private lives but I do think that people shouldn’t get into a relationship especially with all the pizazz of marriage unless theyre prepared to stick around for the long haul.

they shouldn’t expect it to always be a peachy beach or a bed of roses.

I may not be married but I learn from the example of what to do and what not to do in a covenant marriage relationship that’s right in Gods sight by observing the lives of my friends who are.

I don’t know why I keep getting drawn into long distance relationships.

I guess you could say its a lack of self control on my part or perhaps its the allure of excitement that compels me to seek the adventure of romance overseas instead of interstate or locally.

I was successfully enough with a dating/ friendship website to get a girl to vaguely commit to marrying me at some future date  but gained a firmer commitment from my former love who I dashed the hopes of just cos I expected something magical to happen with a lovely African American woman who though she may have been the perfect woman for somebody definitely wasn’t the one for me or maybe she was and I just stuffed it up by pestering her too much with questions and  commenting on everything she did or every picture she took of herself on social media.

big mistake.

have I learned my lesson.

do I know post with permission instead of without it.

not so much.

but I try to refrain from posting on every single thing they post just in case I get another furious response of blockage due to my ‘despicable’ ‘deplorable’ ‘laudable’ behaviour.

at least she was better than the chick who tried to say that I needed to have her permission before making romantic advances towards her.

I don’t think so.

she didn’t apply that rule to her own love life or pursuit of men so I don’t think its fair that she applied the do not pursue rule to me alone.

plus I didn’t even get to the fact that in her book she focussed more on how the abortion counsellor made her feel like a piece of poop when trying to convince her not to have an abortion which was illegal for her age in the state of new York more than she did the act of murder she committed at the hands of her offspring although she did call it wrong.

it’s easy to disconnect ourselves from our sins.

it’s easier for us to focus on the sins of others than our own sins.

we go away from the mirror and immediately forget what we look like.

we think our poop smells like roses when really it just smells like poop.

we should look at the giant tree branch poking out of our own eye before we focus on the tiny speck of dust in another’s eye as much as that needs to be extricated  so they don’t cause harm to themselves by its presence.

if we are living holy lives we will be in a better position to point out the sin in others or to bring them to a place of conviction through the Christ loving example of our lives that never says die and never gives up on their friendship no matter how much pain they cause us or themselves, no matter how far they stray from God’s covering of blessings, regardless of how much they criticize or condemn us, despite the fact they may not appreciate or value us anywhere near as much as we think they should.

the question we should be asking ourselves is are we being the kind of friend to others we want others to be to us?



I don’t let silence scream holy truth loud in my heart nearly as often as I should

This blog post will be written to the soundtrack of lecraes anomaly. You probably won’t pick up any references to Christian hiphop from this post other than this entry point even subconsciously. I just thought you might like to know what is influencing me to say the things I say and do the things I do. Mostly it’s Jesus. Sometimes it’s the devil. I aim to make hip hop on a higher level but sometimes I stay on the lowest one just because I talk myself out of being bold and courageous in expressing my faith when filtered through the healing power of music.


When she calls me baby love sweet heart dear papi or daddy i think we are in a relationship when maybe I’m just buying my own illusion from the dream factory created solely within my own overactive imagination.

Some women and men use terms of endearment so regularly and flippantly they start to lose their specialness,  resonance, significance and ability to impact us with their original intended tenderness.


I don’t wanna be that dude that makes promises to women i don’t intend to keep or lack the wherewithal and follow through to pursue from start to finish.


People try to cut my lyrics up in stanzas they were never meant to be squeezed into.


It’s true bad company corrupts good character or morals.

Ditto for books, art and music.

I only talk about what I do.

I haven’t preached enough in my life to call myself a preacher.

Going to Zambia changed the standard for me about what it means to have a pastors heart.

I saw a pastor take in a widow and her kids into his own home.

Being a pastor or  padre means so much more than sharing sermons on Sundays as important and significant and beneficial as that is as a tool to turn the foolish into fountains of heavenly wisdom.

It’s doing things I’ve hardly ever almost never done like visiting the sick and prisoners clothing the naked and feeding the poor which going by the standard of Matthew 25 should be a regular part of our Christian experience.


I’m far more adept at dishing out advice to others than taking it from them.

I do try and take my own self prescribed tough pills to swallow though.


If it’s arrogance to presume that it’s possible to preserve my innocence go ahead and call me puffed up in the head like an ego tripping peacock flaring out his feathers but hold up before you stick your dukes up the provisio for the maintenance of my purity is contingent entirely on the depth of my affection for Jesus.


I boast of nothing save of that which Christ has managed to achieve through my life.

Can we differentiate between prayers and wishes or is a wish just a prayer that may not necessarily be directed at a specific deity but nevertheless manages to reach the ear of a divine benevolent source of comfort and protection despite the possible presence of incorrect motives in our asking

people used to call me a player long before I displayed the attributes of a callous cold hearted dude who uses women like snotrags and disposes of them just as easily.

I know I’ve gotta stop being that rotten dirty corpse like scumbag that continually habitually tries to convince a woman to leave her boyfriend.

Be careful when you tell yourself i could never be that person lest you fall in the same trap you scoff at others for slipping in.

There but for the grace of God go we – William Bradford English British martyr

I do not point out others sin merely for the purpose of paying them out or kicking them when they’re down but shining the light of Gods truth in their eyes to reveal His nature deeply embedded within themselves often deeper than any of us are consciously aware of.

God has hidden His word in the heart of all humanity.

That’s why when we act humane displaying kindness care or compassion especially to our self proclaimed enemies who kill our families, rob our possessions, fire us from our jobs cos of our faith speaking just as loud through words as it does through actions it is then in that cosmic moment we reflect the heart of Jesus like heavens truest most reliable mirrors.

When trust has been destroyed by lust pride or greed it takes time to rebuild and maybe it never will be reconstructed in humans again for me but it always remains in God the stable foundation of my faith who never alters with times passage but reminds us in His living life giving word that He remains the same yesterday today and the ever returning boomerang of tomorrow which is promised as a certainty to noone in this mortal form yet lingers trapped in the Carbonite of eternal hope that it shall always arrive in some shape or form.

Some people ask for contributions of your viewpoint when truly all their bones joints and marrow demand of you is a meaningless ticker tape parade of false flattery for the dubious achievement of continuing to breathe.

I know none of us are without struggle but some of our struggles are more obvious to the eyes of the world than others.


2nd spin

Given that lecraes album goes for 58 minutes that should give you some indication of how long it takes me to compose a blog post

I know my life would be richer in experience and understanding the way the world works if I did more traveling.

I usually don’t go overseas without receiving an invitation but sometimes I practically invite myself.

I’ve never legally out stayed my welcome except for once in fiji where my air ticket gave me permission to stay 7 months yet the government only officially gave me 2 weeks cos I marked business on the spot on the arrival form that said purpose of visit instead of scribbling down holidays cos I thought doing volunteer work for a pastor qualified as business.

Little did I know most government departments view the world through bureaucratic eyes and look at things differently to the rest of us.

I’m trying to start practicing giving all my attention to just one woman now to serve me in good stead practicing for when I eventually get married.


Yesterday a woman told me i should wear an apron with nothing on underneath.

She was on the older side if she was middle aged.

Some say I’m middle aged already.

She was significantly further up the hill than me.

I don’t condemn her for talking horny and acting inappropriate towards a customer.

She condemned her reputation already with her actions.

Now let’s analyze for a second what would possess a woman in her right mind to hit on a customer even in jest.

For the record she initiated i didn’t ask for it or even speak first or bat my manly eyelids in her direction.

Perhaps she’s lonely desperate and dateless but that’s still no excuse to cut loose from ladylike decorum like that.

Manners maketh the man or woman.

It’s so much more than just not swearing or avoiding putting your elbows on the table and crossing your knife and fork splaid across the plate although that’s part of it.

Man looks at the outside appearance but God looks at the heart.

He views us from the inside out.

I have to keep reminding myself of that.

We have to learn what to save and junk in our culture habits and lifestyles when we come into a relationship with Jesus.

Anything that doesn’t glorify or honor Him in what I do say or think must go right now.

Any part of me that tries to exalt itself above His holiness must be extricated from my personhood Pronto.

It’s not that I don’t want the world to change it’s just that I’m not prepared for what might happen if and when it does.

Are you prepared for the return of Christ. ?

Sometimes I question if I am either.

Come quickly thief of my heart.

Don’t depart in my time of war or peace richness or poverty.

Why do we doubt your presence in the circumstances of one of these scenarios neglecting our souls hidden knowledge He is our ever present help in troubled times.

Seek Him first always homies😃

The loss of gains are the gains of loss

In my dreams I was yours and you mine forever.

In reality my head was severed from my body floating in a joyous misty haze.

Don’t make me come back down to earth.

Reality tastes like bloodied teeth and badly constructed sauerkraut.

Do I take comfort from the knowledge in a parallel universe we might breed like bunnies as bride and groom weeding the garden together behind a white picketed fenced off paradise procured from our own imagination.

God gave me you oh sweetest of friends.

Closer than twin bosoms in spirit though physically spaced further than snow from stars

The last thing I ever wanna do is pushing her away by getting too close

The word of God advises us do not stir up or awaken love until it pleases.

I’m afraid of pushing her into a relationship before she’s ready for one and also of being woefully inadequate husband material for her future needs.

The fact that she’s capable of loving people with the love of Christ who struggle in the same areas of sexual temptation as me proves to me that we are able to have a long lasting relationship if only I am able to climb over this massive wall of insecurities and fear of losing her.

I talk myself out of relationships as easily as i can talk myself into them.

Just because in the past the old adage of hurting people hurt people has proved prophetic for me doesn’t mean this vicious cycle of self destruction n self sabotage in relationships has to repeat itself in the present and future.

If i can love her with the love of Christ and Philippians 4 : 13 proves I’m capable of doing so then that unconditional love should chase away my worry and fear perhaps not automatically but Ecclesiastics 3 : 11 tells me He makes everything beautiful in His time and His perfect love casts out all fear.

His love covers a multitude of sins.

That doesn’t mean He keeps them secret from the eyes of the world or that we should hide our dirt from the one we claim to love the most who has staked their life long claim on our heart even if we never share it with the rest of the universe.

We should definitely take our problems to God before we vent our spleen squirting it into human ears and eyes like misdirected juice from a fresh oyster in the process of cracking it open.

I believe in complete openness and transparency in relationships.

If they can’t handle knowing all your moral discrepancies and still love you regardless and be willing to help you progress towards becoming a better person then they are definitely not the one for you although I would advise seeking pastoral counseling before jumping straight out one love boat and into another’s arms.

We have to be careful not to just throw ourselves into a relationship with someone just cos they’re ready and available we must keep our feelings and emotions in check until we can ascertain that our hearts desire is inspired by Christ our redeeming messiah and reflects His love in their speech and actions.

I know my bae does.😍

Just because someone calls u bud as well as sweet heart doesn’t mean your relationship has gone one step forward then 2 steps back.

I tend to second guess myself and over analyze everything she says way too much.

I love not having to feel guilt or fear anymore about my sins finding me out when she knows all my garbage and she still refuses to toss me in the trash.

That’s the kind of priceless Christ like love this whole world needs.

She never tells me what not to do.

She just shows me through the example of her life the best path for me to follow cos I know her footsteps are always treading on Alpha and Omegas track.

The best women can do that.

They can encourage the exorcism of hatred and bitterness in you and provoke the expression of forgiveness and turning the other cheek even when you’d rather bury the hatchet in someone else’s back than stick it in the dirt.


I do believe in the mantra of healthy mind, body and spirit but I do think as a world we focus way too much on how we look and keeping trim, taut and terrific rather than focusing on the far more important matters of the future residence of our hearts and souls or the inner us whatever you want to call it besides the maker of the universe cos I’m sorry that position is already filled by the most High God and we can never slip into His bigger than a mountain massive shoes.

Some people are better at massaging our egos than soothing the kinks in our fingers and toes.

To be neglectful in a relationship is to be disrespectful of it almost to the point of denying its existence.

We can kill a friendship and win a convert to Christ.

Despite the temporary pain the long term gain is worth the sacrifice of explaining truths exclusivity to an ignorant world that relativizes itself into non existence.

The best argument for believing in God is His unconditional acceptance of us no matter what we do or say and also that He loves us too much to rot in our sin stench riddled living carcasses.

Words that may appear to wound may in fact work as a stinging balm of necessary rebuke to steer us back onto the right track.

It’s amazing how God has time n the ability to converse with all of us simultaneously 😻