Aimless til God gave me a goal

Thinking with sorrow about the laoan lady i made angry cos I could have made her overjoyed with happiness but I only bought a necklace from her shop for her sister and not for her.

I even asked her to pick out her favorite for her sister.

Is anyone else having haman and Mordechai flashbacks when reading this story. ? πŸ˜„

I can understand her pain looking at a beautiful necklace all day being able to afford it cos of her salary yet not purchasing anything cos most of her money probably goes back into looking after her family.

I’m not scum.

I just have a weird way of showing love sometimes

Order hidden within the fabric of my random thoughts

Racism and sexism we all hate em yet we all indulge in them.

It may surprise some that even those who are constantly promoting the superiority of their own race over others to their own detriment hate racism cos though they themselves have no problem with being racist they despise it when others display racist attitudes towards them.

It may not need explaining to most people that racism is not merely the prejudiced attitudes of some of us with pink skin towards other races neither is it exclusively superiority.

It is also manifest in an inferiority complex or cultural cringe that manifests in denigrating ones own culture and exerting undue pressure on others by pigeonholing them in an expectation of their abilities and attractions that may not necessarily fit them comfortably or be a true expression of who God made them to be.


There’s a way of speaking English called eubonics that most of the earth’s population indulge in the luxurious linguistics of without even realizing it.

Hiphops influential spread and particularly its sub category culture of gangster rap has cemented forever in many minds the association of African American culture with ghettos n criminal activity but this was not always the case.

Sad to say the spread of afro linguistics has always come about as a result of slavery.

This is also how we get the global reaching impact of guitar and drums.

African Americans invented just about every style of modern music beginning from the merging of African culture with European influence.

The earliest I can personally date this cultural ingenuity in a musical vein back to is the call and response field hollers and soul stirring gospel hymns of the first arrived 1619 ado domini

Similar to native American culture ( tomtoms ) they brought their talking drums ( djembe, conga, tin pan, kettle) and dance rhythms.

Styles of music African Americans and the african diaspora claim credit for include jazz, soca, rock and roll Β ( originally a metaphor for sex) , blues, calypso, reggae, r n b ( rhythm and blues ), triphop, hiphop, soul, gospel, funk, pop and heavy metal.

The meanings of genres have changed, cross pollinated and merged over time.

Ghetto used to mean ghettoization what the Germans did to the jews in nazi Germany and the dutch french and British did to the zulus xhosas n san of south Africa by segregating every aspect of their lives and making them have separate drinking fountains, separate places to sit in the cinema, separate laundries, separate places to live, separate colleges and workplaces and separate churches.

The separation of church was the most unequal cos there was a long time where african Americans had to worship God n preach in secret except at Christmas time for the entertainment of their owners.

There’s nothing wrong with sending a Christmas card with the individual letters of merry Christmas to you spelt out on people’s bodies but when they have no choice in the matter it strips them of their dignity and makes a travesty of the gospel we claim to represent.


I am not too knowledgeable about dance styles but I can say with confidence the Charleston was created by afro American people as well as krumping which is like a gumbo of styles mashed together by the Christian clown dancer tight eyes which later morphed into animation which is like a more realistic way of doing the robot that finds echoes in the martial arts styles of the matrix trilogy n crouching tiger hidden dragon which was itself influenced by shaolin monks imitating the body movements of animals.


Writers such as William Faulkner and mark Twain were the first to popularize the adoption of gullah or african influenced English.

This can also be described as patois.

It’s true that wherever English is spoken it has the tendency both to cannibalize and transform the language of its surroundings.

This can be seen in india with the addition to our lexicon of jodhpurs for horse riding gear or in the Australian bush where indigenous fellows would find someone by calling out coo-ee

Isn’t God a genius the way He designed sound effects for finding someone. 😁

In my case He didn’t use sound effects just a single imperfectly crafted tweet πŸ˜‚

It’s funny to witness language coming full circle with pidgin English or modern afro American twists on English switching meanings but using words almost identical to medieval English in phraseology minus the thees and thous πŸ˜ƒ

We have had africans in the uk since the 1700s so its highly likely many of our famous poets and playwrights have closer bloodlinks to the african motherland than some may be willing to give them credit for.


If anyone think donald trumps influence came from nowhere just look at triumph the insult dog or akhmal the dead terrorist


the best way to deal with people’s differences from us isn’t laughing about them behind their backs or stabbing them in the face but questioning within ourselves what is it about them we find so disturbing. ?

Is it our fear we might have been them having been born under a different location during earths rotation round the sun?

There is a valid fear of the loss of cultures that results from their mingling but we need not fear this taking place as long as it doesn’t cause our beliefs to be abandoned or oppressed by ourselves or others.


Beyond our cultural background what draws people together is who or how they worship or what they believe.

Worship is whatever we give the majority of our time and attention to.

Whether or not you are in a church building when you do it all of us are called to worship God in spirit and truth.

My ex workmate did it subconsciously when she breathed a huge sigh of relief and exclaimed thank God we got through that busy rush of human traffic.


Tell the truth and shame the 😈

he is scared of people knowing the truth cos it sets people free from remaining in his chains


My honey makes me want to read the bible more simply cos she’s so passionate about its contents.

It’s got less to do with the fact that she’s sexually attractive and I want to impress her than the excitement her face displays in anticipation of heaven and the gratitude and joy she finds in His presence that inspires hunger and thirst for righteousness within me.

She’s got a sharp intelligent mind.

She’s quick witted, has a passion for athletics and fitness sadly lacking in me and is switched on and politically engaged.

She has the rare ability to display bipartisanship and agree to disagree when necessary.

She has taught herself to let go of the nasty things people said and did to her.

It is this godly politeness and living out Christian principles of turning the other cheek that rubs azealia banks up the wrong way when she ruminates too broadly stereotyping all afro Americans as dealing with rage in the same way.

I hate the turn of phrase black attitude.

An attitude cannot be exclusively owned by just one race.

What some Americans call ghetto names us ozzies call bogan names.

These names are traditionally known for being misspelt but can also include those named after a pop singer or a god just because the name sounds nice not cos the parent has any conscious devotion to that superstar or deity.


Some questions that may die unanswered til my bones return to dustmites:

When does someone become a celebrity. ?

Why do we fool ourselves that someone famous will instantly choose to marry us or even some time between now and death just cos we own all their albums watch every movie they appear in even as an extremely optional extra or attend all their sporting events even if we know through the grapevine they’re getting benched just on the offchance they randomly pick us to sit with them or we accidentally brush fingers in the middle of a frenzied blooddrop in a shark tank like autograph signing. ?

Yes i know sharks don’t just get stirred at the sight of our burst corpuscles but please just permit the beauty of the illustration to breathe unhampered by needless critique.


Why do we feel we have the right to publicly dissect every single detail of celebrities lives. ?

Surely this is a sign we have no life of our own the simple fact we live so vicariously through the trash and treasure resplendent in the lives of others.

We are just as fascinated by downfalls and uppity folks being taken down a peg or two as we are by the glitzy and glamorous lives of those who falsely shimmer 24/7 in the light of lime solely within the illusory realm of our oft predictable pathetic lives.

Let’s be honest how many of us video blog or blog exclusively with words purely for the purpose of gaining attention for ourselves?

I would do this to make money if I could.

I don’t know if it has helped anybody.

I know it’s personally a therapeutic exercise.

Ultimately my life goal in everything i do is making Jesus famous.

To be honest i do not possess the mammoth mountain of faith required to live without government benefits or cupping my hands in begging bowl format pleading for assistance from a largely indifferent world to the cries of far more desperate and deserving souls than I could ever hope to be.

I do not currently support any charities other than my own churches benevolent fund and even then in irregular amounts.

Still i would urge everyone to heed the advice of their own better angels and live and give generously not so you can take selfies of what a wonderful warm hearted person you are but to store up treasures in heaven and display the goodness of God through the way you live your life.

Matthew 25 reminds us of how frequently God attempts to speak to us through those in need challenging us not to neglect our duty to show His love to our fellow human creatures in gratitude for His death on the cross for us.

Ours are just the boots or heels He requires for the task both of unmasking the tactics and deception of the enemy and spreading His love like a warm blanket wrapped around the world.


What is it that makes me convince myself i am capable of making independent decisions and resisting the temptation of the enemy other than the obvious fact that I wasn’t assembled in a factory for automatons?

Why do I tell myself i am the exclusive origin of my evil thoughts and devilish inclinations. ?

It is only when I start submitting to God’s will for my life that I realize i am in an unceasing state of war against the enemy til the day my casket plonks into the dirt.

I wasn’t raised to be a racist or chauvinist.

Parents, teachers and preachers have a strong bearing on my creative output but I am motivated and inspired by what I oppose as much as by what I condone.

Supernaturally if it honors God I’m all for it.

I say supernaturally cos in the natural man my carnal fleshly sin bound self wants only to do the things that dishonor and displease God.

I know I am ripping this Japanese motto out of its cultural context but I would personally prefer death by slow cut rusty axe blades sliced about my neck than death by dishonoring God denying His existence living comfortably sitting pretty on the mountaintop for a minute but suffering for eternity as a consequence of gratifying and valuing the wants of the flesh over the needs of the spirit.

How about you. ? What do you live for. ? What drives or compels you in the non roman guard butt whipping jewish heiny sense to get outta bed in the morning. ?

For me it is bae n Jesus almost always in reverse priority order!


Relinquishing control

In my dream i was collecting for charity.

It wasn’t cancer but I said cancer by mistake.

I climbed up the stairs.

One young man had no legs only stumps.

He said come in and take my jar of coins.

In the jar was a mixture of copper, silver and gold coins.

He had a little table in front of his balcony.

It was shaped like a circle.

He cried out can you stay n talk I’m so desperately lonely ?

But I had other houses to visit so I had to say no.

Then his father came chasing after me in a loud roaring voice.

Before he could lay a pinky on me his voice became the storm and I woke up with a jolt

I am not afraid of what I ideologically oppose otherwise I wouldn’t bother to confront it

My chief aim in life is to do the opposite of what’s detestable in God’s sight.

It’s not fair or right or even accurate to compare or equate the struggles of homosexuals who often choose their burden with the tribulations of africans who have more often than not been born into oppression.

No good scientist who has thoroughly investigated chromosomes genes and brain chemistry will conclude that anyone was born with homosexual desires within them.

We don’t make allowances for this erroneous conclusion when claiming the means by which we arrive at our religious identity.

We are born again but we had to be born in the first place.

God’s creation is made.

God’s children are created by the new birth we allow to take place when Christ impregnates His Spirit within us.

Unless we have Jesus living in our hearts we have no basis for our morality.

God gave us a conscience but it’s easy to ignore it or for it to be warped or put on mute if we allow our will to be bent by the whims of society instead of the desires of Gods heart.

I struggle not to be overwhelmed by despair or overcome with anger which achieves nothing unless I team it with the most highs logic.

El Shaddai is moving in my spirit.

HE motivates all the actions i make that dont contradict His will.

He heals and restores.

He makes everything beautiful in His perfect timing.

Ecclesiastics 3:11.

I am well aware of the fact my soul subsists on oft chewed meals of what may well be perceived as stale bread .

God has hidden His word in my heart.

That doesn’t supersede my need for daily manna and fresh inspiration from heaven on the regular.

Christians in the music world seem to be more into inclusiveness n making people feel comfortable about their sexual proclivities than sharing hard to swallow truth n teaching apologetics even to the found sheep yet alone the lost ones.

I fight against spirits in church urging me to be angry at a sermon I know I should be agreeing with cos it’s good n right n loving and holy n not just nod my head at the social justice aspects of the sermon while plucking out the heart of the message which is our universal necessity for salvation via the soul redeeming blood of Jesus Christ.

We can share the truth of how God sees the world without judging others if we degree to define passing judgement as completely writing someone off without choosing to see their potential for redemption.

It is a tricky challenging business and a life long lesson to know how to successfully speak the truth in love.

We shouldn’t deliberately go out of our way to trample on feelings but we shouldn’t avoid confrontation if we perceive it as a divine necessity either.

We should determine this necessity based on whether the lives of those around us are lined up with the will of God.

We are all accountable for our own sin not others.

This is not a truth that negates our responsibility to share God’s perspective of sin in order to save the world from the consequences of righteousness n judgement.

8:28 am.

Is all well with my soul.

I feel like it’s in a constant state of disrepair undergoing renovations or in the process of being cleaned up.

Why do I find it so hard to be just friends with beautiful young appropriately aged and spiritually aligned women who live overseas. ?

With God’s help all things are possible.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me- Philippians 4 : 13 .

According to an old song this includes riding my bike doing my homework and Β (kidself shudder ) eat my vegetables.

I mostly love vegetables now except for taro, rock melon n cooked banana.

N nothing in this world will convince me to appreciate mouldy blue veined cheese though I will tolerate it now if I accidentally discover it embedded in my pizza.

I swing like a pendulum between depth and shallowness.

Intricate complexity and simple things are hidden within one another’s hearts.

Some people are scared to be themselves on social media.

That’s no longer an issue for me.

My only issue with myself is the all encompassing conundrum of how i go about becoming more like Jesus every day.

I don’t want to be that home wrecking type of person who lacks the wisdom to respect boundaries in relationships.

I have tried to steal girlfriends away from their boyfriends if not husbands away from wives.

One relationship is no less legitimate than the other or right in God’s sight if both halves of a coowned heart are walking in God’s will for their lives.

We must not attempt to do God’s job for Him and be the ones who determine right from wrong.

His word is the best assistant for our conscience and the greatest determining factor in discerning our most appropriate lifepath.

I would highly recommend kika ashanike’s books Intimacy and the delivery room.

It took her a great deal of time pain and personal expense to write them.

Very few masterpieces of Christian literature come into being without the oft dreaded combination of excessive blood, sweat and tears.

You can connect with her on

I wouldn’t plug a woman this intensely if I didn’t believe in what she’s doing so much.

God has used her to guide atheists n non christians towards Christ.

She has a background in legal studies n financial consultancy but she chose instead to pursue God’s calling on her life into ministry.

I appreciate her bold stance against fornication or having sex outside of Gods design for a marriage covenant that reflects His pure righteous heart.

I also admire her for advocating her readers to only listen to music that pleases the Holy Spirit.

We must be so careful what we feed our minds through the gates of our eyes n ears cos once it gets in us it becomes tricky to extricate.

It requires prayer and sometimes plenty of fasting to change the way we think so we no longer have the desire to guzzle poison for our spirit and pretend we’re gulping back on crateloads of ribena instead.

We must retrain our brains to love the things God loves and hate the things He hates.

We must never hate people but we shouldn’t just pat people on the back and encourage sinful lifestyles either with our silence or blatant blanket blank minded approval of the anything goes mentality of our modern regressive world masquerading as progressiveness.

If a wheel does a revolution or spins around back to where it was we do not pretend it has moved ahead to a different point or angle degree.

Why do we play mind games with the state of play of our social structure but not basic laws of maths, science and physics. ?

Sex should only be offensive to us if its outside of Gods plan.

As kika says if we lack patience to wait for it before marriage and we agree with God’s definition that love is patient then how can we have love if we lack the patience to wait for it?

I wish I had this book years ago so I had a better argument to present to my friends who are still having sex before marriage inside God’s framework.

I tried to tell them that marriage was a more real kind of love than the sloppy second alternative to God’s best they are still settling for.

This approach was not helpful or useful however cos they still haven’t changed clinging like a rock to its mountain n boulder brothers.

The only positive change i can see in their lives is that one couple now has a greater hunger for the things of God in their movie watching habits.

The female half of the couple does anyway.

They say women generally speaking have a greater hunger within themselves for authentic expressions of God entwined spirituality.

Perhaps guys just express their love for God in less obvious ways.

I wouldn’t class myself as a typical guy but then again I fail to be convinced that he even exists.

Although I’m not the best example of an honest guy there’s plenty of them out there so please ladies if you’re considering giving up on guys altogether don’t quit pursuing them or allowing yourself to be pursued by them.

I’m probably gonna get shot or eliminated or excommunicated from some church circles for saying this but I don’t think it’s an either or thing, I see it as both and . πŸ˜ƒ

Other than the concept of holy war we have no word in the English language that perfectly sums up the concept of jihad.

Possibly our best equivalent would be crusade by that is loaded and tainted by inappropriate usage although it can also be applied successfully to social justice issues if you ignore the etymological roots of its heritage.

Which is a bigger and better priority for our countries unlimited immigration into our borders or free university education for all secondary education graduates and residents of our country cos economically I doubt any of us are in a financial position to avoid both outcomes. ?

Some fail to see how you can hate a candidate but still vote for him based on his choice to tow the line n abideby his or her parties policies.

I want to live in a world where no babies get aborted no fully grown adult or Β child gets raped or molested nobody gets robbed or killed for a kings ransom or a pittance nobody feels they have to lie to justify their actions or possesses any concept of falsehood, no little child gets enslaved or kidnapped from their parents, no woman or man is taught to hate their body by themselves or society no religion has to hide underground for fear of persecution jail or death and nobody is living outside of a relationship with Jesus which is the only way any of these nightmares will be vanquished from the furthest extensions of the 4 points of a compass.

It’s true that we should look for the treasure in others but we must also be lionlike bold and courageous enough to point out their trash so God’s clean up crew can do a work on them n extricate the mess they have allowed the devil permission to make of their lives n hearts by yielding control to him.

Like it or not we can only choose to give control of our destinies to God or the devil.

We can never decide for ourselves independently of the influence of either one if not both simultaneously.

Jimmy needham expresses this truth well in his song which says if I have the ability to decide what to do with my life for myself if I truly think independently why do I inevitably choose to do the things that please the devil not God.

There’s no such thing as a decision made independent of an external spiritual being beyond ourselves just morally neutral decisions and those with eternal consequences.

Some of us are puppets on strings who live and die in denial.

It’s not simply a choice of puppet masters cos the devil doesn’t respect our rights to choose our future for ourselves only God does.

The devil is constantly trying to bind n blind our minds to his will n devices and remind us of wrongdoing he has advised us to participate in.

If he can’t get a cloud of guilt and condemnation to constantly hover over our heads he will try another tactic and try to convince us our sinfulness is good and right n even trick us into thinking hell is heaven if he can.

I wouldn’t put it past him though I hope no one is that stupid susceptible or easily duped by his devious devices.

He is cleverer than many give him credit for yet far clumsier than he thinks he is.

He constantly refutes the truth of his future cos he doesn’t want to face it although we know he will eventually have to whether he likes it or not.

Like us the devil once had a choice about where he will spend eternity.

Now his sinful actions have taken his choice away from him.

Only God knows who is closest to His heart but I know for sure those who believe in the existence of His son and His power to change our lives by the redemption of His blood are guaranteed to spend eternity in His flawless sick and stumbling free home if we walk blameless in His sight and keep our conscience clean of the stench of sin.

It’s easier to be full of holes than holy but I’d rather be the ship that makes it safe to shore or paradise harbor rather than be that poor misguided vessel that allowed itself to be riddled with immoral bullets cos it couldn’t see its maker and designer had crafted it with the innate ability to navigate treacherous waters and be led by His guidance back home.


Jah b me antidote to g

I hate it when chicks lie just cos they’re angry at a fella for breaking up with them so in their minds they manufacture up a criminal activity to involve him in.

For the record as if I need to defend myself i have never been charged with a crime nor was I involved in the specific activity this hateful ex accused me of which was to blast our private business or more specifically words she had shared for my eyes only with someone else.

I value others privacy even though my own clearly means nothing to me or else I’d never get involved with the confessional world of unpaid professional social networking.

I know why the devil is attacking me through my ex cos my music career is just starting to take off .


So I just learned something from scripture in my devotion time.

Of course i knew that part of romans 5 in verse 8 that talks about Christ loving us while we were yet sinners but my mind previously deviously ignored or refused to hold onto the truth contained within the same passage that God Β also called us friend even when we remained ignorant of His existence or intentionally rebelled against Him or called Him enemy.

This means whether you like it or not whether you acknowledge HIS existence or not God considers you to be His friend.

The difference between christians and non is we are more than friends of God.

We are far more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him.

We are His beloved His bride His betrothed His intended His marriage partner His precious adopted kids and He is our exceedingly great reward waiting for us at the end of loves tunnel scattered with sprinklings of darkness n light.

He is sitting with us in our love boat keeping it from sinking by the power of His breath alone.

πŸ€ selah

It’s amazing to think when we become christians He automatically makes us pillars in His temple.

His temple is constructed from HIS body which is us and His soul redeeming blood.

He doesn’t Dwell alone in temples made of bricks and stone but in the heart of every human who desires to surrender their will and desire Β before HIS SACRED majestic throne.

🐢 selah

I eagerly await that glorious day when heaven comes down to invade earth.

God doesn’t love how we love.

We don’t love anyone who we would consider a perfect stranger to us yet alone love our enemies in the way that He prescribes and desires for us to follow.

Yet if we hope to be Β known as imitators of Him and walk in His presence that is precisely what God requires for us to do.

It could be as simple as a smile or a wave or 3 little soul saving potential filled words Jesus loves you.

We make sharing the gospel so needlessly complicated.

We malign or condemn others for how much of their flesh they reveal in church or the character attributes they choose to display in front of us forgetting man can only view other humans from the outside appearance but God sees beyond even that part of us that is revealed to the world via x-ray machines.

πŸ• selah

Only God knows the thoughts and meditations of the heart.

Sometimes you can catch a clue by the comments people connect with their own pictures.

For example the super controversial naked selfie may be an attempt to bait and trap a man into a relationship then be a female panda or it could simply be an exercise in self empowerment for a suicidal girl who falsely think she needs other people’s praise to build her self esteem instead of the Lord’s unconditional guaranteed approval of her physical appearance if not every aspect of her life particularly those areas that flout His law, spit in the face of His grace and contradict His will for our lives.

His desire is that none should perish without knowing Him.

We are all on a journey.

I prefer honesty to dishonesty.

I know God does too.

If you can only think of Him as friend but not groom lover and Lord you are further along on your journey and closer to heaven than those who have completely rejected Him but you are no less in need of salvation while your heart and soul still remain undeclared as belonging to His ownership.

Because we are in a state of war while we live and breathe our only certainty of salvation is how recently we asked Jesus to forgive us for our sins and meant it sincerely from the heart.

We shouldn’t just be sorry we got caught.

There must be a strong desire in us to turn our heels round away from our wicked ways and begin an abundant life in relationship with Him.

We must beware of the wicked one who prowls around like a roaring lion seeking yet another souL to devour.

As if he hasn’t already got enough of them in his clutches that nasty old greedy guts.

His appetite will never be sated til he destroys every last one of us.

But he will not succeed in his evil devices.

He will be caught n tossed in the same fiery lake / pit/ trap he lays out for us.

Do not be too comfortable in your own state of holiness lest you should slip into the many ambushes he has waiting for us attempting to trip us by slipping us pride pills often under the guise of discovering some amazing incredible new fangled method of doing Christianity.

Ever heard of if it ain’t broke don’t fix it? .

Of course you have πŸ˜ƒ

There i go again making assumptions about people that may or may not be true.

🐰 selah

I’m just going to be totally raw and real.

Without mentioning any names (which is a mistake my homie r advised me against but I chose to ignore his sound advice to my own moral detriment perhaps )i would like to discuss my personal trauma resulting from the actions of 2 so called friends who misused my name n tagged it on Facebook.

If you follow me on Facebook you would know who i am talking about anyway through my notifications.

One of these people has apologized which is awesome as this perverted post was the one that rattled my cage and disturbed my spirit the most cos it suggested that I might possess an iota of attraction to the opposite sex n that I would be the type of guy who openly solicits sexualactivity in a public forum which I’m not.

Anyone who knows me personally knows how shy and reserved i am around girls.

I use gift giving as an excuse to get them to open up n talk to me.

Some people paint a false image of me as a player but I’ve never made a virtue out of owning a cheating heart not that even such a thing is possible.

Which is not to say i don’t possess those proclivities and inclinations cos I do.

But God helps me in my struggle to become a truer reflection and better representation of imago Deo.

Just the other day my friend was instagramming about being an ambassador for Christ.

To do this we must cause the world to focus on the oft neglected fear of the Lord which is wisdoms beginning as well as the freedom from the consequence of our sin if we ask Him to release forgiveness to us that is the most valuable n mind boggling gift of His grace

🐱 selah




Tuff gong chile

I dreamt one of my school chums had herpes.

I heard a dude whisper about her thinking i couldn’t hear his words but in my dreams i have ears like a dog able to pick up low frequency volume.

In another room in the same place aforementioned rumor was uttered I saw a wooden sculpture made to resemble a stereo system of record player n speakers with a rendition of Robert nestor marleys face plastered on one corner.

Some people were mad at me for overhearing the secret but they should know i would have no intention of spreading it even amongst the dream replicants of real world inhabitants who offer the dubious pleasure of action without consequence unlike how it is in real life.

The guy who spread the rumor in my dream is a youth group leader in real life so maybe he was only telling someone else about this girls problem for the purpose of praying for her.


Some people prefer to travel in their dreams or their minds than they do in real life.

There was a show about horrible stories which happened to a friend of a friend of mine.

One guy was turned into a head fed intravenously through tubes n connected to the Internet playing games 24/7.

Actually I think his body was cut off just below his hands.


Lack of preparation combined with my willingness to yield to temptation is quite often my biggest weakness.


When you have friends with babies who have to rise at the cow milking crack of dawn n cock crow hour to lead worship an hour down the road or you have ministry requirements that demand your attention before the television breakfast crew but not the radio equivalent you revel in the luxury of being able to stir from slumber at an hour of your choosing when the occasion permits.


An angry God can still be a loving God.

When a parent punishes a kid for doing wrong they still love them.

They are still being loving towards them.

If they don’t punish them they are being unloving.

Our God showing His wrath is just as much an expression of His love for us as His greatest act of grace and mercy bleeding to death in agony over our sins on the cross.

We cannot say we love God if we only love Him for the ways He spares us from the legal requirement of sentencing in the belly of the beast for our errors in judgment that allow the devil entrance in our minds and control over our lives.

We have to love every aspect of His character n personality.

We can’t just pick n choose the parts of His nature we wish to accept n junk the rest.

You wouldn’t do that with your friends and family.

You love every part of them the good you know exists in them as well as what you perceive as the bad and the ugly.

Far more many are comfortable with calling Him homie than Lord.

Acknowledging Jesus as my homie doesn’t require me to make a sacrifice of my time n money or put His desires and will above my own.

We don’t however tend to call our friends liars.

We believe them when they tell us something about themselves.

We don’t require that they prove their existence or provide us evidence of the truth of their statements.

So why do some of us do this in regards to Jesus. ?

He said in john 14:6 – I am the way the truth n the life noone comes to the father except through me.

In another verse He says i am the ressurection n the life.

In other words if we want to experience the best kind of life beyond the grave n we want to live in our mortal bodies with joy and peace ever present we need to have Him living in our hearts.

We cannot call Him friend unless we also call Him Lord.

A friend doesn’t stick their fingers in their ears when their buddy is giving them advice especially when it just might save their lives.

We would consider it foolishness to ignore that kind of wisdom but so many adopt a different attitude when it comes to where they plan to spend eternity.

They put off until tomorrow what they should be dealing with today instead of making hay while the sun shines cos tomorrow may bring fire, flood, rain, tornadoes, hurricanes, cyclones, blizzards, desert storms, earthquakes, volcanoes, tsunamis or monsoons.

Or something as mundane for the rest of the world yet devastating for you personally like your cat or other best friendly pet falling out of a tree.

We should not wait until we’re crestfallen to call upon the healing soul cleansing delivering powerful mighty wonderful unconditionally loving name of Jesus.


As long as we live we carry the potential to shoulder the burden of sin on our backs as much as we vainly attempt to shift responsibility from ourselves onto others spinal cords.

We play with fire then shake our fist at the sky cos God didn’t see fit to plant a wall of angels in between us and our mommas oven.

While rules exist it’s the nature of man to try and break them but what we fail to recognize is God’s borders and boundaries exist around the edges of our lives for our own protection just like an electrified fence prevents a cow becoming a mashed up freeway burger.

Why is it that we try to run our own lives when history proves to us time and time again that we are always better off when we simply trust that our heavenly father knows what’s best for us.

Is it a lack of gratitude for what Christ accomplished on the cross or a lack of awareness of His availability to purchase our freedom while blood continues to pump through our veins our brains are technically functional and we still remain breathing.

Should I be thanking God that government policy isn’t determined by the ever shifting tides of public or minority represented majority ignored media opinion but mostly based on the 10 irrefutable commandments which govern our social structure and overshadow every area of our lives. ?